My Pilgrimage to Lourdes

On February 8th, 2017 I will be traveling to Lourdes, France to spend a week of pilgrimage at The Sanctuary of Our Lady of Lourdes.  This is a holy place for millions of people around the world where the water that comes from the spring has healed people with all types of illnesses.  The Virgin Mary appeared here to a young peasant girl named Bernadette Soubirous 18 times in 1858 and asked her to pray the rosary.  Soon after the apparitions of the Blessed Mother appeared miracles began to happen.   Little did this young girl (now known as Saint Bernadette) know that over 150+ years later people would be traveling here for physical, emotional, and spiritual healing.

If you know me then you know how much I love the Blessed Virgin Mary.  I am constantly praying the rosary and communicating with the Blessed Virgin.  Mother Mary has been coming to me frequently through out my entire life and almost daily in the last several years.  I have always been drawn to the Blessed Mother since I was a young child. It is with much prayer and meditation that I have been guided by Her and Spirit to make this personal pilgrimage to this sacred place to see what message awaits.  

I will be writing about my experience from the perspective of a Christian and a medium.  I hope that you will join me on my journey and Spiritual discovery.  I will be taking a list of names to the Grotto where I will leave the names of people who need healing.  If you would like to leave your name or names of people or pets you love that need any kind of spiritual or physical healing just list the names below or private message me.  I'll collect the names before I leave each morning to the sanctuary and leave them at the alter where they will be blessed and burned each evening in the procession.  It is my hope that with the healing prayer of Mother Mary and God that peace will fall among all my friends, family, and Nation.  I am so grateful for this experience and I am even more grateful for the gift of life, friends, and family.  

AVE MARIA, gratia plena, Dominus tecum. Benedicta tu in mulieribus, et benedictus fructus ventris tui, Iesus. Sancta Maria, Mater Dei, ora pro nobis peccatoribus, nunc, et in hora mortis nostrae. Amen.

We are Love

I'm a love addict.  Ha.  I said it.  I love to love and I love to be loved.  Love makes me feel happy, secure, grounded, and peaceful.  Who wouldn't want to be loved? I spent a large portion of my life running away from the vibration of love because I didn't think I deserved it.  Like a lot of adults in their 30's I had the misconception that love is only something you read about when you are a kid.  I spent too much of my life thinking that I was unlovable.  Well, You know what?  God wasn't having it.  Ha. Now I'm surrounded by love...  and so are you.

I look around and what I see is the same sadness I suffered through in my years of fighting the love that I was worthy of.  I see this everyday.   I see people with body image problems. I see people in bad relationships.  I see people who walk around referring to themselves as bitches or assholes because they take pride in their misguided anger.  I see people with walls up so they don't have to feel emotion for no other reason than to get through their day. These behaviors are survival and are far form the concept of God. God's way of being is love plain and simple.

If God is love and we are part of God then why is it wrong to say to someone how much you love them.  Where did this fucked up mentality of having to earn love come from? What are we scared of?  Do you say I love you just to hear I love you in return? No!!  When we feel love we want to express it.  Let people know.  Love is one of the most healing words in all of the human languages.  It's vibration is so high it will heal sickness and imbalance spiritually, mentally, and physically.  We associate love with the heart chakra which vibrates 5000 times higher than any other place in the human body.  It's the seat of the soul and the soul is the pure essence of love.

Dr. Masaru Emoto

There have been studies done with water molecules and high vibration words that resonate at the frequency of love.  They would say words, songs, and mantras that resonate with love directed at the water molecules and then freeze them.  The result was large and beautiful snowflake patterns.  Scientists took water molecules and said words of anger and aggression to water molecules and when they froze the water molecules the results were malformed and rigid.  This is profound.  You consider that our human body is made of 80 percent water.

We are either taking energy or giving energy all the time to ourselves and the people, plants, and animals around us.  Choose your words wisely.  Love is not a game or something to be rationed out to people you feel deserve it.  Love is God.  Love is the Universe.  Tell people you love them.  Don't hide it.  Don't make people earn it.  Give the gift of life.  Give the gift of health.  Give the gift of God.  Give the gift of love.  It's free.  It's there for all of us.  It's where we come from and where we will return.  It is God.  It is you.

I love you.

The Loss of a Sister...A New Relationship.

Wendi and Mekenna May 2014

Last year on July 19th 2014 I lost my sister, kindred soul, and true love.  My sister and her family were visiting Hawaii and she was killed in an accident on the beach while body surfing with her children.  I had lost my grandmother a few months prior so this was a blow that left us wrenching.  I  talked to her on the phone the day before her and her family flew out and she said she couldn't wait to see me in a week when she flew in to NC for a visit.  I said I loved her and she said she loved me and then we hung up.

My mom called frantically the next afternoon and left me a voice mail saying Wendi had been in an accident and I needed to call home.  As soon as I listened to the voice mail I heard Wendi talking to me.  I knew she had crossed over.  She said.."Baby.. I'm ok..It was fast.. my body is on life support but I'm not there.. I love you..It is my time".  I said I don't want to hear you.  Go away.  This can't be happening.  I just sat and tried to focus on anything but the idea that my sister had crossed over.  She came to me again that night and said she was ok. She was with Grandma.  Grandma was coming through too.  She was so happy and in no pain and again said not to worry.

Me and Grandma

Days passed and then weeks and then months.  I was angry.  I was hurt.  I was alone.  People tried to comfort me but it didn't matter.  People would say.  You're a medium...You are so blessed..You can still communicate with her even if she's not in the physical world.  It's not the same.  It's true but I'm human and I wanted my human sister.  You can't hug a voice in your head.  I wanted Wendi on the phone, in person.  Anger and sorrow consumed me.  I sat and ate and sulked.

I began to put on weight and get really out of shape.  I could feel my fingers and feet tingling constantly and tightness in my chest.  I continued to work and do a little yoga but as soon as I got home I would binge eat and watch trash TV.  Now... Wendi comes to visit almost every day and it was great to hear her but I wasn't listening to what she was saying about moving on and enjoying life.  One morning in April she came through and said "Baby...You're really fat...I love you but you got to do something...I was finished here..You still have a lot of work to do... Get your ass to a doctor and off the couch... Love you".

On April 20th, 2015 I was diagnosed with diabetes.  It was exactly the wake up call I needed to hear.  I said to my sister...Thank you... I won't let you down... We will beat this.  From a medical perspective my body doesn't correctly process the sugar in foods I eat.  In the energy world I was not focussing on the joy and love in my life(aka: sweetness) and I was focussing only on the loss of my sister and grandmother.  You would think I would know better considering I'm a psychic-medium and energetic healer but I ignored the lessons focussing on only that which I didn't have and looking away from the blessings that were abundant around me.  That's what we do as humans in this world. We focus on the things we don't have and ignore the clear signs of goodness that surrounds us.  We then begin not to see sweetness in anything. We see only the drama of sorrow and anger and hopelessness.  We begin to surround ourself with it.  It becomes our new normal.  Then we get sick.  I was focusing so much on the relationship I didn't have and ignoring the relationship with myself and the new relationship with Wendi that had evolved.  My sister was still here.  She was actually more clear than ever just not the way I had grown accustomed to through out my life.  I had to evolve.  I can't do this lesson again.  Ha.  Fuck that.

I began my yoga everyday.  I ate clean and got off sugar.  I let go of the drama and negative emotions that I had found comfort in and began love.  I loved myself, loved strangers, loved nature, loved friends, loved everyone and loved everything.  That's my favorite thing I remember about my sister.  She knew how to love.  She never had unkind words to say about anyone and always went out of her way to love anyone and anything.  I knew it was my mission to spread that love and spread her spirit everywhere into and around my life.  With that love my walls have lowered, my armer has fallen, my heart has reopened and my life has began new again with the blessings that were always around me and continue to astound me on my journey.

Wendi and me Hong Kong

My sister is my hero and soul companion.  I love her and am so blessed I got to know her in the short time I had with her on the physical plane.  She has shown me that love always conquers all and rises our true self to the highest vibration.  Love yourself, love your family, love that stranger next to you at Starbucks, and above all love the ones that are not loving you in return.  Love will always prevail.

Wendi, thank you for all your unconditional love,
I love you so much.

Suicide: The Broken Contract (part 2 of 2)

There are a few exceptions where the soul does not have to come back into a physical life and repeat the lessons cut short by the act of suicide.   It is my knowledge that each suicide experience is observed and in some cases if it is decided among you, your Spirit Guides, and God that the lesson has been learned you will not repeat the course.  This usually occurs in a few scenarios.

1) Euthanasia in the way of relieving pain in a terminal illness.

This would be a person who is terminal and has lived life and is at the end of their path in the present incarnation.  Pain is something that we all experience at different levels.  We choose to feel pain so that we may learn from the vibration and take the experience to our Soul Group and God on the other side so that we may all gain from the knowledge.  Sometimes when placing together the experiences in our Spiritual Contract pre-entry we get a little over zealous and our passionate inbox of experiences can cause a lot of feelings that are hard for the physical body to transition through.  We write Spiritual Contracts with excitement and we choose interpretations of experiences that we haven't lived before so we don't know exactly how those experiences will feel or how our body will react.  Suicide will not be treated the same in a situation where the person is experiencing unbearable pain while suffering from a terminal illness.  The suicide will be evaluated but a complete repeat of the life terminated will not be the case. 

2) Repeated suicide (from life to life to life).

This is when a soul has continued to repeat the suicide pattern in more than a few life times.  Spirit wants all of us to succeed in our lessons here on earth.  If a soul keeps breaking it's Spiritual Contract  our Spirit Guides, Soul Group, and God will reassess the issues and move the soul on to another lesson that's less intense.  The soul will eventually have to go back and experience a similar lesson but not until their Spirit Guides, Soul Group, and God believe the soul to be mature enough follow through with out contractual compromise.

Suicide is a broken contract not just with ourselves but in our agreements with other souls incarnated in that physical life, our Spirit family, and God.  Just as a child's parents don't disown them when they make a bad grade on their spelling test God and the Spirit family on the other side don't send a compromised soul to hell or eternal damnation because they didn't finish their original plans.  God and their spirit family will lift the soul up, heal, and love the compromised part of that essence.  With this encouragement and love the soul will try again and 99.9 percent of the time succeed with the most beautiful success.  

If suicide has touched you, a friend, or a family member know this... God loves all of us.  There is no condition to the love God gives us.  We are all experiencing this life together with more support than you can imagine.  God has a plan for all of us and the final out come is unconditional love.  Have peace in knowing that you and everyone you love will once again be together one day regardless of how we exit the physical world.

Peace and Love,

Jonathan

If you or someone you know is thinking about suicide go to the link below. There are people who can help.

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

or call: 1-800-273-TALK 

Suicide: A Broken Contract (Part 1 of 2)

As a psychic-medium I see people every week that have lost loved ones to a number of variables from cancer, tragic accidents, heart disease, SIDS, old age etc.  One of these variables that has exposed itself frequently over the last few years is suicide.  In doing so Spirit has taught me the truth about this "way out" and enlightened me to the reality of what happens when a soul decides to cut their contract short by committing the act of suicide.  The spiritual information gifted to me has not only given me faith that God is all loving but has blessed me with a direct line of consciousness in helping family and friends of suicide participants know that when their loved ones crossed over they were greeted with unconditional love and acceptance.  I would like to share with you my spiritual awareness in the area of suicide.

When we as a soul decide to incarnate on the physical plane we meet with our Spirit Guides, Soul Group, and God. In doing so we place together a life curriculum.  Upon finishing an energetic outline for our physical life we sign off on it (energetically speaking) forming a Spiritual Contract.  It's the soul's version of going to school.  There are many classes, numerous grades, and countless lessons to experience before we cycle off or in layman's terms graduate.

Earth is one of the most difficult places for souls to incarnate.  Souls incarnate on earth because on the "other side" a life on this physical level is one of the fastest ways to raise spiritual awareness and increase essence vibration. It doesn't mean life on earth will make the soul better. Life on the earth plane is more intense and the lessons learned are emotionally concentrated. When the soul incarnates and starts working through life on the physical plane there are a combination of emotions that don't exist on the "other side". Those include pain, guilt, inadequacy, shame, and doubt, etc... There are souls that cannot deal with these low frequencies even though they may have written them into their contract to attain spiritual growth so they look for what they feel is an alternative solution or "way out" ...suicide.

There are a number of reasons why someone feels the need to end their life prematurely.  Whatever the reason may be my hope is that people know once the deed of suicide has been initiated the soul does not burn up in the depths of hell.  Suicide is a breach of contract but it's not a decision made by an individual that leads their soul to eternal damnation.  A soul will experience a number of physical life times so that it's essence may continue to evolve and raise it's source vibration.  We are talking up to and sometimes over a thousand life times per life cycle and many of us will want to experience several cycles.  Think of each life time as a course or class to accrue credits to attain a degree in a certain field or career.  Think of each life cycle as all of those courses and credits adding up to a degree in that major. There is no logical sense that God would send a soul to eternal damnation and punish the soul because the soul didn't do it's best in one class or course.  It takes a myriad of classes in several different subjects to complete an entire degree.  A soul will however learn the subject eventually to attain that credit.  It is not an easy way out.  The act of suicide almost always doubles or triples the work for the soul in the lesson they have chosen and like all courses needed to graduate this course must be repeated with a few exceptions.

The very first thing that happens when a person commits the act of suicide is the same thing that happens when anyone dies.  They cross over to the other side.  They will be greeted by their Spirit Guides and the unconditional love from their family members on the other side.  Unlike souls that cross over from their contractual death souls that prematurely end their Spiritual Contract with a physical life are taken to a place of rest.  When they arrive at this place of rest they are infused with the vibration of love and peace. The soul is then placed into a trance state while wrapped in an energetic tube of white light.  The soul will rest here and be tended to by caretaker souls who have experience in healing souls that have committed suicide.   A majority of these caretaker souls have at one time committed the act of suicide.  The caretakers in the place of rest have overcome the experience of suicide and are now healers for souls who are in need of their love and knowledge.  Here the soul can stay for a period of as little as a few months or as long as a few hundred years.  The fragment of the soul in the place of rest is being fed nothing but unconditional love and acceptance until they are ready to face incarnation again and retake the course they prematurely withdrew from.

Everyone's soul is fragmented.  Your entire soul is not plugged into your body on earth.  You have a portion of your soul that stays on the other side when you incarnate and begin a physical life.  The part of your soul that stays behind is called your higher-self.  While the fragment of your soul that is in the place of rest is being healed and recharged another fragment of your soul is working hard to re orchestrate events, goals, and relationships in the life that was cut short.  This takes a lot of energy and work.

Example: Bob is 32.  He is supposed to meet and marry Gwen and have three children, a house, and a dog.  Bob has all of this written into his spiritual contract.  Bob also wrote into his contract drug addiction and a bad break up at 21.  At 21 Bob goes through a break up and uses some drugs and gets depressed and decides to give up on life because he's misunderstood and commits suicide. 

Now Bob is on the other side.  He has been greeted by his Spirit Guides and family and taken to the place of rest.  A fragment of his soul and his Spirit Guides will help find another suitable mate for Gwen whom with she will marry, have 3 kids, a house and a dog.  Bob's relationship with Gwen was written into her contract in the form of an agreement. Bob has to continue to fulfill the agreement even if he's not physically in place to do so by finding a replacement for Gwen.  In Gwen's soul Contract she decided to be in an agreement with Bob on the other side before they entered a physical life.  Since Gwen didn't end her contract prematurely Bob's soul has to find a replacement so that she may continue her course and stay on her spiritual path.  The broken contract will now take more energy for Bob's soul to repair than it would have if he worked through the course and earned the credit.  Now Bob has to find replacements for all the places he played a role in Gwen's contract and numerous other soul contracts and agreements that are continuing current life paths in the Spiritual Contract that was broken.

When the soul that has committed suicide heals they will get ready to enter into another Spiritual Contract that will almost mirror the contract that was broken.   The soul will meet with their Spirit Guides, Soul Group, and God. Together they will work out a plan to encourage the soul not to break the Spiritual Contract this time around.  When the incarnated soul gets to the same point of contractual compromise as before Angels and Spirit Guides are sent in to help push them through the low point.  Once the incarnated soul gets past the vibration of the suicide the soul will move on. In my interactions with Spirit they say suicide usually doesn't happen more than a few times per life cycle.  The goal is to learn and raise the vibration of essence ultimately not repeat the same lesson over and over.

Peace and Love,
Jonathan


If you or someone you know is thinking about suicide go to the link below. There are people who can help.

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

or call: 1-800-273-TALK